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| Tuesday, June 21st, 2005 | | 4:21 pm |
One day and counting!!!!
well i have only one more day up in icnline till' i have to report to the LTC (Leaders Training Course). with that said i have some mixed emotions, i am very excited but also very scared. I am trying very hard to get ready for this thing, but other than physical training i don't know how else to get prepared. when i think about going to this thing my first thought is excitement, but then i see my friends and i think about how much i am going to miss this place i get sad. it will only be four weeks, but it will be four weeks of drilling, getting yelled at, early mornings, and endless nights. the thing is that this is what i had dreamed of since i was a kid playing G.I. Joe. this is what i have dreamed of, and there is no quitting. so wish me luck on my four week journy, and if i dont see you guys before i leave, i shall see you in four weeks!!!! later all! RYAN Current Mood:  contemplative | | Tuesday, May 31st, 2005 | | 8:55 pm |
I made it to the big time!!!
Well its offical, i now have a full ride to Wentworth Military Academy!!! this scholarship covers everthing!!! its awesome!!! overall its worth $60,000 over two years, which covers room and board, uniforms, and books. the best part of all is that i get payed while i go to school!!! i get $350 a month my first year and $450 a month the next year. its really a sweet deal you might say... the only thing is that i must get in shape for all the physicall challenges... but thats a ok with me. i leave june 22 and get back july 25 then i report in at the academy in Augest 15. so i dont get a big summer, but thats ok with me. the best thing of all is that i finally reach my goal of becoming an officer in the military, just one step closer to flying for the military. so i must say... YAY!!!! well i must go i shall talk to you all later!!! peace out... Ryan Current Mood:  cheerful | | Thursday, May 5th, 2005 | | 6:46 pm |
man oh man, DC was a blast, and i must say it feels good to be home. i am soo glad, we kicked ass at nationals, so i am happy. i now gladly accept being called the master-debator, lol. anyway, this trip also allowed me to think, which is something that i really needed to do. with all regaurds to prom, i could really give a shit if some one does not want to grow up, that is there problem; not mine. i could careless that this person is going to prom. the only thing that matters is that i will have fun. i feel that she is going for the worng resions, but that is just me. i just feel sorry for the poor sap that she is using. but whatever, when i look back on it, she hasent ruined my senior year, in fact she has made it more comical. the way i look at it is that i am going to prom with the person that i really want to and that is more than i can say for her. so her going to prom does not bother me anymore. sorry to tell you honey, but you failed at your plan, nice try though. Prom should be a lot of fun tho, i anticipate lots of fun, food, and females. well i must get back to AP stuff. audios. Current Mood:  content | | Tuesday, April 26th, 2005 | | 6:04 pm |
I dont know what it is....
well i am off to nationals tommrow morning. i was excited and happy until i hopped on here! there are things that i just dont fucking understand! why cant people just grow the fuck up, and leave shit behind. this is a bunch of fucking bull shit!!! "i wouldent know i am not in high school" she said, no your right, you are in college, you should act like it, and just fuckin leave the past!!!! she is trying to fucking kill my enitre fucking senior year and its fucking pissing me off!!! what's next? first its the star follies, now its PROM!!!!!!!! GOD DAMN IT JUST FUCKIN GROW UP!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood:  pissed off to no end!!! | | Sunday, February 20th, 2005 | | 10:02 pm |
step one of a two step process
Finally!!! after much begging my parentlas for a year and a half i fially got one!!! i got a CAR baby!!!!! yeah i havent taken pics of the awesomenss that is my new car, but i will due that tommrow. it has everything to include a sun roof, power everything, A/C, Heat, and an awesome sound system!!! the only downfall is that i need my license but hopefully i will have my permit by the end of the week. so all i have to say is WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!! later, p.s. wooot.... p.p.s. i am very happy..... Current Mood: YAY!!! | | Sunday, February 6th, 2005 | | 4:48 pm |
| | Thursday, January 27th, 2005 | | 1:11 pm |
intresting
ok so here are the results: center> </center> so yeah i thiought that it was quite wierd... te he he, but funny at the same time... Current Mood: meh | | Thursday, November 25th, 2004 | | 9:32 pm |
ummm... yeah
ok so let me say now that i am sorry for any gramatical/ spelling errors in this log. i absolutly hate writing in here, and the are a couple reasions why i am writing in here. one, my eyes are so swolen that i can hardly open them, and my actual journal is filled with the heart felt pages exprressing my feeling for everything. i feel like a drugie in rehab, and i am quitting a drug cold turky. with all the sickness and the depression that comes with it. now, please understand that i am not refering to anyone as a drug, nor am i speaking from personal experience. (about the rehab or the drugs) sometimes i wish that this was all a dream and i would wakeup in my old house in palm springs. life seemed so much eaiser there; much more peaceful, and a lot less sadness. i can remember that the only sad days that i had down there was when my dad left me, and when i had to say goodbye to my life long friends. other than those days i cannot remember a day in which i have felt the same feelings. there is this one dream that i have accationaly. i am on a boat with some people. ther is a cage at the end of the boat, and i see this cage and i go towards it. i finally reach the cage and i get pushed into it. so i am hanging above the ocean with the people gathering all around me. all of a sudden the cage starts to lower into the sea. no one is doing anthing, they are just staring at me going down into the deep blue. i ,on the other hand, am franticly trying to escape. untill i see the lock on the door of the cage. once the people are out of sight the water is up to my chest, and the cage stops. then it drops right to the bottom on the ocean floor. the wierd thing is i can breath. i am still trying to get out. i look over to my right and there is this black cloud that is coming at me, fast, and i just give up. i am down on my knees, and i see the cloud hit me, i wake up. now i dont know what my sub-consince is trying to tell me, but this dream scares the shit out of me. givin the situation that i am now it speaks volumes. i think the thing that scares me the most is the uncertanty of the future. for me, i want to make sure everything will be alright in the future, and that the things that i have now will be there, and when something that i have is taken/leaves then i get scared about the future. if i am not making sence then i apologize, i just need to express my mind. i gotta get going. i hope that everyone is having a better thanksgiving than me. bye Current Mood:  crappy | | Saturday, November 20th, 2004 | | 5:16 pm |
te he... cox... he he
cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2><tr><td align="left" bgcolor="#D8FF00"> Your Porn Star Name is: Michael J. Cox
</td></tr></table> much thanx goes out to my buddy nate for showin' this to me. its hilarious. later all Current Mood:  blah | | Friday, November 19th, 2004 | | 9:19 pm |
i just i dont know... anymore...
so, my mind feels like a jumbled mess of mush. I cant seem to get anything straight, and it is starting to affect my sleep. it all statred a couple of weeks ago when the wierd dreams statre, and then progressed into not being able to sleep properly. i cant stand this, i just want to break free of this burden. this burden that has brought me down for so long. i just dont know what it is, and it really pleaging me. on a side note, i thought that i was more important than something on a television. whatever, i dont know. i am really frustrated right now. i dont know what there is to say about this situation anymore. sometimes i feel that i am set on the back burder. (sort o' speak) i feel like i am hagning by a thread; thread that i starting to break. i dont know how much more i can deal with this. well i guess i better go. Current Mood: annoyed | | Thursday, November 4th, 2004 | | 7:12 pm |
I Dont Know
Hey Y'all I feel really weird right now, and I don’t know why. It seems like I have everything running in my head at one time. I am lost, lost in a deep dark forest with out any means of directions. I just don’t know what to do. I feel there is some huge burden on my shoulders, and I cannot stand up straight. I feel really depressed right now, and I feel like I am alone. It hurts to think. It seems I don’t know what to do about anything. Current Mood: Depressed, and i dont know why | | Wednesday, October 20th, 2004 | | 8:06 am |
Let it Snow!
Its Snowing!! there is about three inches on the ground right now, with no signs of letting up. this is so cool. i am kind of upset that we did not have a snow day, but the snow is still awesome!! Today is a very Special day because... ITs KATIES BIRTHDAY!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELLYBEAN!!! YAY! Today she turns 18!! i am so happy for her. anyway, i have been having some weird dreams lately. they involve me being really jealous, and sad, its not fun. i am sitting in the school library right now, i am supposed to be in the weight room, but the little freshman, and juniors are taking the PSAT today, so the weight class is in the library, oddly enough. did you know that i can lift 25 dictionaries? neither did i! well i better get off the computer and go back to hitting the books, literally! lol. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELLYBEAN! i LOVE YOU! Current Mood: chipper | | Monday, October 4th, 2004 | | 4:32 pm |
I Dont Know ...
Hey y'all Well I decided to up-date because I feel the need to. let me start off in talking about WTP. I can feel the preparation for the competition coming on like a tsunami. Milton says he will assign us our units after the October break. When I heard this I was bummed big time. I so wanted to have our units before break so we can get to know the people in our units. I guess the reason why this happened was because he is in Hawaii right now getting hitched. I am really nervous to start prepping for the competitions. I feel that we have to make it to nationals, or we are letting the entire community, past WTP families, and Milton down. I am just really nervous. This past weekend was alright...I guess. I got to see my girlfriend for like five hours total. Which is better than nothing, but me being me, I always want more. I just cannot get enough of her. Lately I have felt that there is just something that she is not telling me, and that she is mad at me or something... I don’t know. I am probably just blowing it out of proportion, again, like I always do. It’s just that when I hear that she is going to spend the weekend in her dorm room because she hasn’t done that before, I just get majorly bummed. I just miss spending time with her, and having fun with her, and now it feels like it will be forever until I will be able to do that. Dont get me wrong I don’t expect for her to change her plans just for me, and I don’t want to get in the way of her school. so I am just going to let her do whatever it is she needs to do. So, I don’t know, its like a double edge sword, I guess... well I am going to go try and relax by listening to some frank. Here are those great words of wisdom: I may disagree with what you have to say, but I shall defend to the death your right to say it. Voltaire later Current Mood: lonely | | Friday, October 1st, 2004 | | 8:39 pm |
hummmm...
so i really dont know if this is true or not, but i thought that it was pretty funny. other than the flurting, i hope it is right: a big thanx to mare, in showing me this! later y'all Current Mood:  curious | | Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004 | | 4:38 pm |
i guess this means that i wont be drinking starbucks...
Ok y'all (sorry Milton is getting to me) so SGM. Hernandez sent me this email that i thought was very interesting. he told me this was a real story from one of his buddy's who is in the Marines. this story made my blood boil, but i would like to hear what you guys think. CAUTION: this is an indication of how liberal some big cooperations can be!!!! Dear everyone: Please pass this along to anyone to anyone you know, this needs to get out in the open. Recently marines over in Iraq supporting this country in Operation Iraqi Freedom (OIF) wrote to Starbucks because they wanted to let them know how much they liked their coffee, and try to score free coffee grounds. Starbucks wrote back telling the marines "Thanks for their support in their business, but that they don't support the War and anyone in it" and that they wont send them coffee. So! as not to offend them (Starbucks) we should no longer show our support in buying any Starbucks products. As a current Marine and War Vet. Im writing to all patriots. I feel we should get this out in the open. I know this war might not be very popular with some folks, but thats doesn't mean WE shouldn't support the boys on the ground fighting street to street and house to house for what they and I believe is right. If you feel the same as I do then pass this along, or you can discard it and I'll never know. Thanks very much for your support, and I know you'll all be there for us when i deploy once more. Semper Fidelis, Sgt Howard C. Wright 1st Force Recon Co 1st Plt PLT RTO this is a type of attitude that we absolutely do not need right now. People may not support the war, or the commander-in-chief, but you still support the people fighting the war. these poeple are leaving their familys, and fighting for people to have thier own opinoin, and so that these huge cooperations can exist. this type of attitude will not help the troops and does not do any good for the moral of the troops. i would be interested to any of your comments. thank you, later. Current Mood: confused | | Monday, September 20th, 2004 | | 5:20 pm |
watchout batman, its... Butt-Man!!!!
just call me butt-man, lol. i like my weapon of choice, lol. these tests are too funny. i like these quizzes, there are a bunch its awesome. if anyone has a side-kick name i will be glad to hear one. lol, talk to ya'll later. Current Mood:  crazy | | 4:11 pm |
damn it feels good to be a gangster...
Hello everyone, this is appendix-boy reporting from the confines of my house, well today was an alright day. it all started out with a phone call to my jellybean. then it was off to help Mr. Parsons; i really have an awesome time being his TA, its just a blast.anyway, after that i went to ROTC where the entire command and staff was bitched at by Sprinkel. ya know sometimes i think that man just likes to bitch at who ever he can, Mega-lame. that was the sucky part of my day, but then it got better when i was able to talk to my girlfriend again. After lunch i went to WTP where we had a little party, and then took some quizzes. we then began to start talking. having disscutions in WTP is one of my favorate things because i like to express my opinion, and begin to pratice to cross-ex, which i think is my biggest weakness in competition. so, these disscutions allow me to hoan my skills and make me feel better. i am having sooo much fun in WTP, and hopefully that funness will last thoughout the year. right now we are just going over the book, but it is still fun because we are just having a good time, and we are really going through each lesson really quickly. the good thing is that i dont feel that we are missing anything. everyone seems on top of everything, and everything is running smoothly. ok so it has been snowing for most of the day, and usually i would not have a problem if it were in like November or December, but it is SEPTEMBER and not even fall yet. but its exciting, and i guess it dont have a problem with it its just wierd. maybe its ushering in my birthday!! which is in 3 days and counting!! YAY!! i am just one year away from 18 YAY!!! so i really have nothing depressing going on in my life otherthan missing my jellybean. it really sucks that i either, dont have a car or i am not in collage yet. but i will see her soon, and we will have an awesome time just like we always do. well i must get going, but here are some of those cool words that i always post: I know how men in exile feed on dreams of hope. Aeschylus, Agamemnon Greek tragic dramatist later all, P.S. Jellybean i love you soooo much Current Mood: cheerful | | Sunday, September 19th, 2004 | | 6:43 pm |
Being peed on?????
ok so that is apperently how kinky i am. if ya ask me it is way off. but anyway i just thought that i wouold post this because this is pretty funny. well it is another sunday and that means that my girlfriend has gone away, but she will be back for my birthday, so that should be fun!!! YAYNESS! weekends are way tooo short. i just wish that i could be in collage already. well i must go, however before i do here are some words to live by: Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command. Alan Watts goodbye all, P.S. I Miss My Jellybean!!!! | | Thursday, August 26th, 2004 | | 3:54 pm |
damn it feels good to feel good again
ok well these past few weeks have sucked majorly. at the end of my summer i have gone through two , spent about two weeks in the hospital, and missed my friends go away to collage. this has sucked, but thanks to all those well-wishers and to some great doctors, i am feeling better. the doctor said that he cant take out the drain until tuesday, and that i cant go back to school until Sep. 13. once i heard this i was kind of pissed, but i realize it is for my best health. i just want to get to school, and not have to miss anymore school. i hate to miss school. my biggest fear is that of WTP and getting behind in that, and have Mr. Hymes (if that is how you spell his name) kicking me off the team. i just want to do well.
a big thank you to all who wished me well. i greatly appreciate your thoughts and sympathy. your guys' guidance and thoughts are what helped me get though the toughest hours. THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!!!
a special thank you is deserved to my punkin'. baby, thank you so much for being there for me when i needed you the most. im sorry that i was not able to spend your last night with you, but i promise you several more fantastic nights together. i am glad to hear you are having a wonderful time in collage, and congrats on "the quick change room". miss you soo much and love you even more.
well i am glad to report that i now have no place to go but up. thank you all who had me in their thoughts. before i go here are some of the words that can be helpful in the game of life:
even if you're on the right track, youll get run over, if you just sit there. Will Rogers.
thanx ya'll
Ryan Current Mood: content | | Friday, July 23rd, 2004 | | 1:22 am |
well its one in the F***ing morning
alrighty so it is about one-thirty in the morning, and it has been brought to my attention that i have not updated for a while. so here i am. so tonight i hung out with some of my friends, which was a huge relief. well mainly because i was able to hang out with a special firend of mine. but anyway, i had lots of fun and i think it was just what i needed. anyway, i need to go because apperently i have a 730 wake up call so that means i must go. well it was fun but before i go here are some words: To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead. Bertrand Russell good morning!! audios -the roseanator Current Mood: drained |
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